I tried a lot of things, and I mean A LOT of things to “cure” my postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety. My first stop was a local Chinese doctor who has a unique method that involved me lying on a table naked while he pinched my skin. He had helped my husband with some things in the past and he was also the weirdest and most expensive practitioner I knew, so I figured that he must be the best option. When that didn’t work, I tried Zoloft or Sertraline to be specific. That had nasty side effects so I went natural again. Homeopathy. Energy Work. Acupuncture. Hypnosis. Evox. Praying to cast out demons. Oh baby, I did it all.
There was one moment in all of that frenzy of trying to cure myself that I will never forget. I was seeing a particular acupuncturist. Her treatments weren't really helping, and I was talking about terminating our work together. She looked at me and said, “If you don’t take these supplements, you will be in trouble.”
It was a very important moment for me. Even though what she said did upset me, and I went home in a panic and cried to my mother-in-law, I knew 100% that she was wrong. Something inside me just knew it. Now my thoughts kept spiraling and my body was still freaking out, but deep down, I knew the truth. You might have guessed by now that I stopped taking her supplements. I listened to my heart instead of my head.
There are a zillion practitioners out there, traditional and alternative that will claim to fix you and that you need them to be ok. But let me tell you something, and I think its incredibly good news. You don’t need a magic pill or a magic healing technique. You need to see who you are and how your thoughts and emotions work. That’s it. You’re not broken, and you don’t need someone to fix you. You are whole and you are well, underneath all of the thinking and intense bodily reactions that come hand in hand. You’ve just innocently been looking at things incorrectly and accidentally holding on to things that were never yours because you didn’t know any better. You can read more about that here.
That very still, quiet sense of knowing that I would be ok even if I didn't take the acupuncturist's supplements was my true self. It was wisdom. I just didn't know it yet. That same stillness and wisdom is who you are at your core as well.
Try it on and see how it feels. It's way cheaper than most other options, has no side affects, AND it doesn't involve lying naked on a table getting pinched. What do you have to lose?