Up to this point
I haven't been the type of person that regularly comes in contact with the supernatural
But during the birth of my first child, I touched it for an instant
It is a moment that I will never forget
And I think by writing this, I am just now grasping the significance of it
Shortly before my daughter was born
There was a moment during labor when her heartbeat was dropping unexplainably
After examining a few things, my midwife looked at me, and she said, "Katherine, we really need to get this baby out.
At that moment, I felt so completely exhausted
And in my mind
There was nothing more than the thought of, "I don't think I can do this."
There was no pep talk
No encouraging words
No voice of determination and resolve
Only "I don't think I can do this."
The next contraction came
And a force that was so strong
So beyond anything I had ever felt before
Surged through my body
Like an unstoppable irrefutable current
And my daughter was born
I got to see
My mind lay down in defeat
And my self arise
And now I know
Beyond a shadow of a doubt
That I am not my mind
I am THAT.